full of mistakes and regrets. full of emptiness and miseries.
i broke up with my boy. one of the most painful things ever happened to me. i really thought that we'll be together forever. too bad i was wrong (i forgot the fact that nothing lasts forever). he's no longer mine. but im ok with it, maybe we're not meant for each other. i just had to live half alive throughout the year, as my other half is still in him..
hmm.. it is supposed to be a good thing i guess. but maybe just not for me. my life, my mind, my heart, always stays in Malaysia. so how can i live without my life, mind and heart??
I made mistakes. HUGE mistakes. plural plural plural. seriously. like sooo many. i made the wrong choices, trusted the wrong person, made stupid decisions, trusted the wrong person again, and i got hurt. again and again. many many times. stupid and idiot me.
On my birthday, i didn't even get to blow candles. yup! no cake for me this year. not like previous years. and i consider that very tragic and frustrating. That also reminds me about how lonely i am here. my buddies, my family.. they're all in Malaysia. i have nobody here. So, tell me,, how can i stop missing my home??
i hope 2012 will bring more happiness & joy into our life.